Between fight & flight

Friday, November 20, 2009

My darling I have no heart to tell you
Where my passions lie and lust
For it's lost its way, my heart's astray
Its path is broken, its trail is stale
When it was young, it dreamt in droves
It pined for lovers, my heart was full
But now I fear it worn, it's gone
My chest now with a gaping hole
O darling, my darling, will you help me see,
If I've left it where I last met you?
When my heart, it yearned to desire much
But it stopped for it saw it spoke of naught
O darling, my darling, what am I to do?
I have lost all passions, save for one, for you

5:57 PM

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

You know what sucks? When there are problems & you try & try to find a solution, to find out the whys/ hows/ what can be dones & you just cant seem to. I hate unresolved issues. Hate it. When theyre unresolved, they linger, & that means the possibility of things turning for the worst, which is urgh. Neverending bull. I cant stand this, seeing other people hurt & just not being able to help at all. I feel so useless. Absolutely zero. Utopias are impossible, but at least, at the very least, we should all try to be happy. Life shouldnt be hard. It really shouldnt.

1:07 PM

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Big Night Out,
fuuuccck yeeeaaah!

This mama loves her drama. Today started out like any other day, waking up at noon, wondering what day is it?, followed by mentally planning my meals (the most thinking I do nowadays). Then the texts came in & Shaister said Big Night Out's 148 seats are sold out! & m like fuck, I must go get my ticket! NOW! Couldnt wait for friends to decide/collect money etc. So at that very moment, I bathed & ran out of the house all flustered & worried. To the T.M.! Rushed up to Customer Service & bought my 161 ticket, all by my lonesome self. The Sistic agent had to ask me twice to make sure she heard this loser right, "Tickets for how many?" Both times getting, "One. *hehe*" M sure shes thinking, poor girl, no friends to party with. But whatever right, m going to Big Night Out. So Ill be partyin the fuck out, Ive still got the friends in my head! EXCITED! Haha, kecoh bro, kecoh.

Yesterday was pretty awesome, been a while since I saw Nutcase & my minah keling Bedah. I was the only one all attached & silly. "Can't believe you'd be the first one!" Where is Gen-Gen when we need her! When I need her! Damn. Haha. Oh well. But things are still the same, everyones still the same, racial comments, lesbian tendencies & everything. Yep, comfort in the familiar. Only difference is now I can only live vicariously through my girlfriends. Nah, I dont really miss the dating game, all the drama, one side fighting to make sure the other remembers not to fall in love, or maybe two boys fighting over you, or the dilemma of choosing between boys etc etc. Haha okay it was fun toying with boys. If they can do it, I say so can you! Its the 21st century, bitches. I guess now its just a different game, maybe some drama, both sides fighting to make sure the other remembers to be in love etc etc. A regular toy, is all. Heh heh heh. But I shall still want to live vicariously through my girrrlfriends!

My favourite reaction yet:
"Omg i'm so proud of you:)
wow its not a girl:)"

2:53 PM

Sunday, November 15, 2009

23rd March, Viva la Vida

Ahhh, this explains the 251. A crazy Chris Martin & butterfly confetti! Notice how we screamed extra when the confetti fell. I think we were more excited about falling paper cutouts than about being so near to Mr. Martin. Hahaha. Both of us totally girl-screamed & turned to each other when they started playing Lovers. I think we shocked some of the people around us. Haha. Good times, good times, Viva sure was a good one :)

7:59 PM

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Muse, 3rd Feb, Le Resistance

I hope Unintended will be on their set this time around. Ill bloody pay 168 just to hear them haunt me in my dreams with Unintended. I hate it when concerts are at the Indoor Stadium. Fucking ripper-offers (I paid 251 to stand for an hour plus at Coldplay, haw haw). Anyone interested to Muse along? Cos a mighty mass Muse orgy is just what the doctor ordered.

Do you Muse?

9:10 PM

Friday, November 13, 2009

Orchard Central Rooftop Garden.
Tiny garden but pretty pretty lights :D

Twenty two pieces of heaveeen~
M planning to meet him often next few days hahaha.

Boy is twenty-two! & since m old at twenty, he is practically ancient. TUA! Were a vintage couple, yo. Fo sho. I was boyfriend for a day. Pick up from work, movie, dinner, & constant reassurances like "don't worry, you're not fat," "it's okay, I'm here." Totally rolls eyes please. Hahaha. Being the boy is pretty tough (especially on the wallet booo.) Thank god it only lasted for a day. Back to being the non-paying, demanding, bitchy girlfriend yay!

I totally got him with the 22 macaroons & a beautiful Braun Buffel wallet. Damn cute la his reactions. Hit him twice where it hurts. BOOM! Chillax first and BOOM! K.O. biatch! Ich heisse super fantastiche :D Btw I am truly, madly, deeply in love with the wallet. Loves it! Totally love at first sight. One day, when he is not looking, I will steal it from him. Then I will feign anger at him for losing my gift, & he will feel extra horrid, he will keep tripping over himself trying to make it up to me. I will thus secretly get so much love from my baby & openly get even more love from the silly boy. My god, m brilliant.

Weve known each other six months, & were almost three months old. Weve only just begun, still a PYT. But hey m a believer now. And he knows Ill personally kill him if he breaks this heart heart heart (yes, the bitch has told the bastard fo reals. Haha). It sure is nice to be caught when youre falling. Hahaha, cheesy BS FTW! Damn, m just another beautiful little fool. Damn.

Oh, this should be magic
After all
After all

:)

3:38 PM

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

My Cherie Amour

My Beautiful (Booby:D) Bestfriend turns twenty :)

Random tourists from the Piiillipines & BANGLA

Almost smile & almost waldrobe malfunk - Shan useless!

Been a while since RHS got together. Been busy with Sentosa Five of late, haha. Things are still awesome between us, so glad :) Didnt do much but m sure Sherrie still loves us no matter what! I bet shes gonna tell her friends "all my bestfriends got me was a stupid flower & some shit Breadtalk cake." Hahaha. A whole night of blushing too much, eating too much, laughing too much. I am on a mission to find sth against Shannizzle! SO UNFAIR. Funny as fuck, but SO UNFAIR. First birthday down, three more to go. What do you know, November babies are some of my fave people :)

Happy birthday
my 9.35 babylove<3

12:30 PM